Artificialy Awake

A year in the life of an artificially awake mind
never truly awake, never truly asleep
always somewhere in between
Thu Dec 24
Tue Dec 22

Better day today
woke up from a crazy dream to dad yelling since i’d overslept and the vonage network was down (obviously my fault)
but i got up n dressed, went out to run an errand and hit the walmart, finaly got a card reader (obviously by the photo updates)
went to the bank, headed home, chilled some more and worked on art, got the base of Jeffs mask done and some of waynes christmas gift :)

re-went back out to walmart for some things and came home, cooked dinner

now a nice relaxing evening, having lemon pepper chicken and rice
followed by a long hot bath with incense
and a movie :)

Mon Dec 21
Nice slow daycleaned more during the day and slept somedid alot of art, sketching wise, had a fight with the scanner which took over an hour before i could start inking themthen watched movies on the couch while working :)

Nice slow day
cleaned more during the day and slept some
did alot of art, sketching wise, had a fight with the scanner which took over an hour before i could start inking them
then watched movies on the couch while working :)

Sun Dec 20
Shitty day, woke up to dad yellingonce again taking his anger and frustration out on me, even threw a bottle of soda at me which felt really good hitting my bruises and allhad a breakdown and called wayne crying because i couldnt deal with iteventually calmed down and my dad apologized to me
did more running around before finaly coming home then i drove him to the airport, so hes finaly gonecame home and cooked  more spagbol to eat and had a big overclean of the house, threw out alot of stuff and cleaned it all
i feel achievedif only i wasnt in so much pain…

Shitty day, woke up to dad yelling
once again taking his anger and frustration out on me, even threw a bottle of soda at me which felt really good hitting my bruises and all
had a breakdown and called wayne crying because i couldnt deal with it
eventually calmed down and my dad apologized to me

did more running around before finaly coming home then i drove him to the airport, so hes finaly gone
came home and cooked  more spagbol to eat and had a big overclean of the house, threw out alot of stuff and cleaned it all

i feel achieved
if only i wasnt in so much pain…

Sat Dec 19
dad needed me up and about today so had to get up and drive around with him even though moving alone hurtsbeautiful sunset though :)
headed to moms after to spend the nightwas our family christmas, brought them some champagne and small gifts and we had a nice big dinnerwatched Elf and talked, goofed around and played Sorrywas nice being with everyone again and smiling :)

dad needed me up and about today so had to get up and drive around with him even though moving alone hurts
beautiful sunset though :)

headed to moms after to spend the night
was our family christmas, brought them some champagne and small gifts and we had a nice big dinner
watched Elf and talked, goofed around and played Sorry
was nice being with everyone again and smiling :)

Fri Dec 18
Still shook up and hurting all over from yesteray
got to see the car, its ruined -___-
wished mom happy birthday and spent the rest sleeping on pain killers

Still shook up and hurting all over from yesteray

got to see the car, its ruined -___-

wished mom happy birthday and spent the rest sleeping on pain killers

Thu Dec 17

long and strange day

woke up and went to have an over priced breakfast with the Jeff person then went back downtown to explore all the now open places
we went around the fort and around the lil shops, bought alot of incense and waynes Christmas present which was awesome, walked around talking and goofing off then went and got hand made ice cream
was just a really awesome day with him, relaxing and talking and enjoying having a friend to be awesome with

then as it got closer to 2 we headed to the car and said our goodbyes as he headed off to training and me closer to my fate

stopped and got gas and some food before getting on the interstate to head home
started the long drive back
it started to rain, heavy and traffic was stop and start the entire time on i-4

then it all happened so fast
the truck in front stopped and i slammed the breaks but the car just kept going
i rammed into the back of him and ended up spinning
smoke started to fill the car so i shut the engine off and forced myself out the broken door
was still raining and i was in so much pain, my chest hurt and everything was shaking
the guy behind came and gave me his umbrella and helped me find my phone and things, i couldnt think, i didnt know what to do,i cried
the cops came and took my statement and my license then the ambulance came and sat me down, checked me over and took me into the ambulance and to the hospital
but the tire burst on the ambulance so we had to wait for the next one to come to take me to the hospital
all the while they put sticky things on me, gave me a breathing tube with oxygen
took my vitals and tried to put a needle in my arm for an IV
My chest still hurt, as did everything else
finaly got me to the hospital and they did an x-ray of my chest, to make sure i hadnt broken anything
just have bruised ribs and was finaly let out 3 hours later
came home and fell asleep and a long cry

Wed Dec 16
A slow start to the say since we both slept in late, so after getting ready we left around 2pm and went to the comic store and hung out a bit before heading out to St Augustine He was in a bad mood and didnt talk most of the way there and was like that til we met up with his mom at carabbas which was tasty as always, we sat and talked with his mom a bit and had lots of fun before leaving to go check out downtown We had fun there, walked around the fort there and talked more while goofing around since the food made him happier, then wondered around downtown being silly and talking, went in the haunted hotel and got hot chocolate :) after we were done we went to his moms house and then took  jeff to his dads then back to his moms where i spent the night
blissfully unaware of the danger that i’d face tomorrow

A slow start to the say since we both slept in late, so after getting ready we left around 2pm and went to the comic store and hung out a bit before heading out to St Augustine
He was in a bad mood and didnt talk most of the way there and was like that til we met up with his mom at carabbas which was tasty as always, we sat and talked with his mom a bit and had lots of fun before leaving to go check out downtown
We had fun there, walked around the fort there and talked more while goofing around since the food made him happier, then wondered around downtown being silly and talking, went in the haunted hotel and got hot chocolate :)
after we were done we went to his moms house and then took  jeff to his dads then back to his moms where i spent the night

blissfully unaware of the danger that i’d face tomorrow

Tue Dec 15
Very strange day, as always nothing went as planned
the plan was that jeffs mom would drop jeff off and we’d go to Universal studios then back to my place, watch anime and eat pizza then back to uni the next day and back to his place from there
what ended up happening:awesome day of randomness began as most days do with me oversleeping and waking up at 9 to thick fog outsidecalled jeff to tell him i was running late and headed out around 10:30am to his place, didnt make it there til about 12:30We chilled for a bit at his place then went and got gas then went to the beach for a bit, after i got my feet wet and talked a bit we went to gamestop and met up with his mom, then from there went and got chik-fila before heading for my place stopped for an hour at a rest stop about 50 minutes from home and just sat talking about life and its ironies and random things, just enjoying the day Headed home once the sun had set and watched Last Exile while eating pizza then watched Neon Genesis Evangelion: You are (not) aloneWAS EPIC
then sleepytiem

Very strange day, as always nothing went as planned

the plan was that jeffs mom would drop jeff off and we’d go to Universal studios then back to my place, watch anime and eat pizza then back to uni the next day and back to his place from there

what ended up happening:
awesome day of randomness began as most days do with me oversleeping and waking up at 9 to thick fog outside
called jeff to tell him i was running late and headed out around 10:30am to his place, didnt make it there til about 12:30
We chilled for a bit at his place then went and got gas then went to the beach for a bit, after i got my feet wet and talked a bit we went to gamestop and met up with his mom, then from there went and got chik-fila before heading for my place
stopped for an hour at a rest stop about 50 minutes from home and just sat talking about life and its ironies and random things, just enjoying the day
Headed home once the sun had set and watched Last Exile while eating pizza then watched Neon Genesis Evangelion: You are (not) alone
WAS EPIC

then sleepytiem

Mon Dec 14
Another random and drama filled day
but slightly more funsince my brother was arrested me and Lexi had to drive to the jail to see when he could be let out and took the bail money with us
after a long drive there,stopping for food and amscot on the way, we finaly get there to be told they wont know anything til 6-7pmso we went the long way home through lakeland, past my old school and headed home, waited for my dad then him and Lexi went back out while i stayed at homehe was let out at 10, has to go to court on the 14th january and now has a parole officer :(

Another random and drama filled day

but slightly more fun
since my brother was arrested me and Lexi had to drive to the jail to see when he could be let out and took the bail money with us

after a long drive there,stopping for food and amscot on the way, we finaly get there to be told they wont know anything til 6-7pm
so we went the long way home through lakeland, past my old school and headed home, waited for my dad then him and Lexi went back out while i stayed at home
he was let out at 10, has to go to court on the 14th january and now has a parole officer :(